it's always ourselves we find in the sea
Seriously life? Would you like to shit on me some more? I can tell this is going to be a miserable year.
It’s come to that point in the semester where I’m so stressed and emotionally drained that I just want to give up and sleep all the time. I just…I don’t even know how to articulate how I’m feeling, and I don’t think I actually want to. I’m scared to let anyone in.
I really should have Tumbled about this weekend, and I would right now but I’m really tired and I went to bed at 8am. Let’s just say it was sort of wild, but I didn’t do anything stupid.
I’m never on Tumblr anymore! D:
But on the bright side, my weekend has officially started, but now I’m all alone in my dorm watching HGTV and snuggling up with my Wall-e blanket. I am such a loser.
Nothing fucking interesting happened tonight. I kept getting buzzed and then kept having my buzz killed because tonight was fucking stupid. First off, I’m angry I didn’t get drunk and secondly I’m angry that campus was fucking dead tonight….IT’S THE FIRST FUCKING SATURDAY NIGHT. So I’m just going to do a real quick recap.
Every fucking room was too hot to be in.
Reslife was fucking stupid and kept telling people to go find a room and go to bed WHEN EVERYONE IS FUCKING OUTSIDE. Like no, if I want to be outside, I will stay outside. THANK YOU DICK FUCKS.
Some guy slapped my ass.
Some other guy put his crotch in front of my face while trying to get on me while I was smoking a cigarette and then proceeded to angrily tell me that I’m on the wrong team and that I need to “feel a black dick in me”. SORRY I’M ONLY INTERESTED IN WHITE GUYS. I’M NOT RACIST, IT’S JUST MY PREFERENCE. SORRY I TURNED YOU DOWN TWO NIGHTS AGO BUT DON’T FUCKING GET ALL UP ON ME AND ANGRILY WHISPER DIRTY THINGS IN MY EAR; I’M NOT FUCKING INTERESTED IN YOU. And you know what? It’s not even about color, this guys is ugly and obviously the biggest douche bag and creeper in the world plus he’s mad disrespectful; I don’t care what race he is, I STILL WOULD NOT FUCK HIM. I don’t understand why guys think I want to hook up with them. I DON’T EVEN FUCKING KNOW YOU, I MET YOU ONCE. I’m not trying to have a one night stand; so far I’ve been really good and I’d like to keep it that way until I least meet someone I’m attracted to, SHIT.
I ate a taquito.
Wandered around campus for basically two hours.
Crept on the freshman and trust me there’s nothing special in that class. Obviously.
Basically went through a pack of cigarettes. Fuck my life.
Some girl had to ride in an ambulance. Apparently she “drank too much”.
Oh and my friend totally placed her huge ass tits on my face while she was trying to get dressed. Not my thing.
I need to go to bed, seriously. This night was disappointing and frustrating.
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY I’M EATING SPICY KING PAO AT NEARLY 5 IN THE MORNING? I AM SUCH A FAT ASS. But seriously, this shit is delicious.
I’m obviously drunk, again. And I’m trying to sober up by eating and drinking water and this shit is soooooo good. My night was definitely interesting tonight…worse than last night on the creepy/awkward scale, BUT I LOOKED FUCKING GOOD. Anyway, I ran into my friend Kyle, who I haven’t seen since him and my friend Jon visited me in London nearly five months ago. I gave him the biggest hug and we legit had like a three fucking hour deep ass conversation, and I cried. He’s such a good friend (plus he’s so damn hot and smart) and I’m glad we got to catch up. He’s actually thinking of studying abroad next semester so I’m super excited for him, and I get to give him tips!
After that I went to go see my friend Madi, who had been with me earlier but disappeared. Let’s just say this is the second night in a row that she’s put me in an awkward drunk situation. Tonight we went to some guy’s room and no lie within a minute of me being in that room, he was trying to hook me up with his friends. And when I said no he tried hooking me up with the other like seven guys in the room, a “my pick” situation. When I said no again and he asked me why I said, “you need to get attractive friends”. I’m so sassy when I’m drunk. But then he tried to explain he wanted a threesome with my friend and me but it wasn’t the fact that he asked for a threesome that was awkward, what was awkward was how he asked. He brought up yield signs and stop signs and he was too vague, but we got the picture. DON’T WORRY WE DIDN’T DO IT AND I STILL HAVEN’T HAD SEX IN NEARLY TWO MONTHS.
But yea, by the way this weekend is going, I can tell tomorrow is going to be a shit show. And now I’m going to continue feeding my fat ass. Night!
First Thirsty Thursday of the semester. Got drunk tonight; not drunk enough, and actually I’m trying to sober up real quick before I go to bed. I’m forcing myself to drink two bottles of water before I go to bed; it’s what I always do so I don’t wake up feeling like shit and embarrassment. I’m proud to say I didn’t do anything stupid tonight nor did I have sex! AND I actually talked to loads of people. I mean, I usually pop out of my awkward box when I’m drinking and am actually friendly but this time it felt natural. I learned that a lot of people actually know my name on campus even if I thought only a few people knew me by name. Like seriously, almost every guy I talked to tonight, knew my name and wanted to talk. Granted, I was a bit freaked out because I never really talked to any of them for the most part and it was creepy, sort of. This includes the cute hockey player who I thought didn’t even know I existed, and who, for the record, I would totally fuck. BUT ANYWAY, I’m surprised and glad that people who I don’t normally talk to actually know who the fuck I am and are actually interested in getting to know me more…even if some of them are creepy.
I also want to say that I looked really pretty tonight and felt pretty too.
However, some guy totally said to me, “We’re going to be best friends by the end of the night,” and that was the creepiest (so far) pick up line I’ve heard on this campus. AND NO, WE DID NOT BECOME BEST FRIENDS. LIKE I SAID, I DIDN’T HAVE SEX TONIGHT.
But on a side note, I haven’t had sex in almost two months. I’m proud of myself and also horny.
I totally expect to be drunk tomorrow, as in Friday, as well as Saturday. I missed this feeling and being able to just be comfortable around the students at my campus whom I don’t really talk to but want to.
And lastly, why the fuck was my room trashed when I came in. I know most of the mess was my doing because I couldn’t figure out what to wear, but someone definitely threw my shit on the ground that wasn’t even there to begin with and some stuff ended up in the closet that I know for a fact wasn’t there this morning.
OKAY! Time for bed…ya know, once I finish my water. I apologize if this whole thing doesn’t make sense. I’m still a little drunk. GOOD THING I DON’T HAVE FRIDAY CLASSES!
Please tell me why I’m still up at 2am and I have class at 8am. 6 FUCKING HOURS. I really need to stop pulling this shit. Maybe I’ll take a nap tomorrow after my workout and before drinking? Yea, that sounds good. I obviously don’t want to be tired before I make an ass out of myself tomorrow. Shit, I mean today. Okay, night!
I feel like I ignored Tumblr all day
But move in was good. I saw almost everyone that I really wanted to see. There were high points and low points in the day. Plus I learned a lot. And also half my friends were drunk and I was not. They were funny, but on Thursday we’ll all be funny. THIRSTY THURSDAY HERE I COME.
Tomorrow is the first day of classes. I have classes from 10:50am-8:45pm. Plus I have to talk to my boss because she’s freaking out on her own and needs me in the office asap. I also have a dinner to go to for the international students here this semester.
I’m excited, no sarcasm intended.
But I still need to finish unpacking my clothes and put away some stuff that got neglected when my drunk ass friends came over. Baahaha, I love them so much!
JUST KIDDING. Already this day is turning out badly.
So here’s the deal, our van hasn’t been able to make the trek to my school in almost two years so my parents always rent a van for the day. HOWEVER, for some reason they weren’t able to do it this time. Hopefully we’ll get this figured out within the next 20 minutes. Seriously.
So I’ll finally be moving into my dorm today after move in was delayed two days because of the storm. I spent all night packing and straightening my hair and right now I really want my coffee. I hope this day goes smoothly. Senior year, here I come!